Posted by Anonymous on 2015/06/03 under Uncategorized Everything is just going down hill. For some reason, I just get hurt, and feel horrible about myself daily. Every single person that I’ve liked never liked me back, I always get rejected, I get called names, get made fun of, and I still don’t know how I get out of bed every morning. My life is just plain s***. I get promised things, and they never happen. I get so frustrated and never know what to do, and today I ended up hitting someone over something really stupid. I am struggling to pass my classes, and my mother told me she didn’t want me living with her anymore. I just feel so unwanted, and so invisible. No one I’ve ever known has actually liked me. Also, one of the people I like called me a faggot, and an ugly b****. I swear it took everything in me to not run away and cry. I feel so self conscious all of the time because I am tall, skinny, have no butt, and I am ugly. I’ve started to believe everything everyone said about me. I’ve never had my first kiss, had my first real relationship, nor have I ever had any real guy friends. I cat-fished only two people, and I don’t really regret it. I feel as if online I am beautiful, smart, short, thick, or whatever I decide to be. Going online is my escape from reality. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go anywhere. At this point, I don’t know who I am, and what I’m doing.
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I’m sure you have heard it before but it’ll get better just hang in there
Hey, I know you probably don’t want to hear this. Plus I think its overrated, but everything will be all right. It pains me to say that because at the moment, I don’t really believe in it anyway. Back to you, you’ll find someone eventually. It will take time and patience but you’ll find someone that truly cares for you. Forget that stupid guy that called you a faggot and an ugly b*tch. Screw him. He isn’t good enough for you anyway. You’ll find someone SO much better than him. When you do, you’ll look back to this moment and say, “What the heck was I even thinking when I looked at this guy?”. I know life is going down hill and it seems as if life isn’t gonna let up, but it will. Eventually. I believe in you. You can pass your classes. Don’t worry about what you’re mom. You bring skinny and tall? Girls would KILL to be that. I’m also skinny, tall, and have no butt. Honestly, who gives two shizzes about butts? Society is fudged up. Just know that. I haven’t had my first kiss or relationship. Heck, I’m not even allowed to date until I’m in college! I agree with you. Online is my escape. It’s helped me more than anything and anybody (except for God). You can either keep this in mind or straight up ignore this comment but I just want to tell you that I believe in you. I’ve never seen or met you before but I believe in you. Of you have the strength to get out of bed every morning and feel with the bull shizz in life, you have guts man. I envy you. You’re strong, i bet you’re beautiful, and don’t listen to any of those crack heads. Let me know when things start letting up.
Sorry for all my mistakes. Its hard typing fast on my phone.